it is meant to be, it will be.
– many people believe in this unquestionable saying. It dawned on me about the train of thought when you tell yourself ‘it is not meant to be‘ (when someone breaks your heart or shit just happens).
This mindset is driven by your unmet expectations or people giving you the wrong signals. As much as the notions are misinterpreted, it boils down to your ability to read people (my weakness) and the amount of trust given to your heart.
Turning 20 and still growing, I believe the experience you go through will inculcate you with wise decision making (to relive a certain experience or abstain from it, forever). And that is your choice.
The experience you go through is your choice.
I was delusional to think that my relationship was on the right track when the cracks began to surface. He will say ‘you are being delusional.’ And I would not listen to him – not that I chose not to but I could not.
It was only after the breakup had I realised I was trapped in my own world. The negative thoughts in my head were hard to resist and control, and I was completely torn apart. I feel sorry for the once everlasting relationship to slowly fall to pieces but for you to save me it was meant to fall.
Now that I am single, I start to realise the importance of individuality because for a couple to love and depend on each other, it is the differences which bind and make us interesting.
Last night, we sat together in the movie theatre but I am uncertain if he will be the one by my side as the day goes by.
I asked myself, ‘is this meant to be?’ Now I belong to the few of many.